I started running again. Or attempting to run. I’m really walk/running at this point. But it’s an effort, and honestly I had not been making much of an effort before mid-December. I went to the doctor, and I was diagnosed with high blood pressure. It’s familial, and honestly it’s not even that high yet, but high enough for me to decide to get my butt in shape.
I’ve been running with a friend, who coincidentally moved to Charlotte from Montgomery a few years before me and lives in the neighborhood across the street from me. Life is random sometimes.
So what do I think while I’m running. Here’s a list:
- The Very Beginning: This feels great! My body is strong!
- About 5 Seconds Later: Well, now I feel like I’m running on my left leg wrong.
- Telling myself to Settle and think: Why can’t I run on my toes?
- Hyper-focusing on breathing, which makes me feel like I can’t breathe: Am I chest breathing? I need to belly breathe.
- Questioning if my body is falling apart now that I’m over 40: What’s up with my left leg?
- Almost to a mile and thinking about correct form and breathing techniques: Am I alternating each breath with each footstep?
- One Mile In: Wow–done with mile 1 already. I’ll stop and walk for a few minutes
- Start running 2nd mile: Why is this so hard? Have I been running forever? Everything hurts. I have 1,000 miles more to go to get to the 3rd mile.
- Sail down a hill — Wow — I’m an awesome runner. I can go so fast. I’m a Gazelle! Look at me!
- Struggle to run uphill — Why am I even doing this? Running is hard! I hate this. Hills are terrible. Who even made hills?
- Hit the 3rd mile — yes! Almost done.
- Run/walk/run/walk — why can’t I just run the whole time?
- Finish 3rd Mile: 3 miles is so easy. I bet I could do 6!
Deep thoughts during a run. I try to get myself to settle, and sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn’t. Breathing has always been my problem. I guess this is because I have asthma, and therefore not being able to breathe can sometimes be a big deal for me.
I love the feeling after a run. It’s like I have just conquered so much, and it makes it all worth it. Sometimes on runs I come up with ideas for writing too. I need that right now, since I have had a writer’s block and really have not been producing much work. I had an idea during a run the other day, and I think I will start working on it. Not sure if it will be a short story or a novel, but here’s hoping I can get some words on paper.
Today, after my run, I saw this beautiful sight when I rounded the corner. The clouds pulling away and the moon shining bright like a beacon. A reminder that there is always something beautiful after the storm.
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